I often ask myself, “Am I enough?”
It’s a thought so small yet can have a big impact. It’s a question that can either help you or harm you. I’ll admit i’m very vulnerable to this question, that I have to battle with it all the time. And sometimes I lose. This is not a way to find reassurance from people to tell me that I am good enough. You can tell me a million times, and I will still struggle. I’ll start to wonder why I even started this blog, if I even make a difference with it or everything else that I do. I am not a good enough wife. I am not a good enough friend. I am not a good enough worker. It will wear me out.
A lot of people will say to me, ” don’t worry about what everyone else says, worry about yourself, do it for yourself.” To an extent that’s true. You can set goals for yourself without someone else being a motive and not getting negativity get to you. But to base this idea around everything I do without regarding others involved is just selfish. Our generation loves the idea doing whatever we want and justifying it by saying “i’m doing this for myself.” We focus more on loving ourselves instead of loving others as we love ourselves.
God is a God of grace. The very next breath you take is a sign of Grace. When He gives us saving grace and transforms us from the inside out, it makes us want to give grace to others like He does for us daily. That includes giving yourself grace too. Whether you think you failed yourself or you fail someone else, there is still grace for you.
Christian, you are loved. I know you must hear this a million times, but it doesn’t make it any less true. He is bigger than your failures and closer than your deepest hurt. You were never saved based on your merits. You weren’t saved because you think you’re awesome, but because HE’S awesome. You could have never saved yourself, and this is GREAT news. You don’t have to prove to God why you deserve to be saved. NO ONE deserves to be saved. No one has ever earned their way into God’s Kingdom. Not by attending church 5 times a week, not by singing in a choir, definitely not by making a christian themed blog. You are saved through faith by grace alone. He’s given you a wonderful gift you didn’t earn, and nothing you do will make you un-earn it. God doesn’t want your strength. He wants you to surrender and her wants to give you His.
His grace is sufficient for you in your weakness.
His grace is sufficient for you when you don’t feel enough, because HE is enough.
His grace is sufficient for you when you feel like a failure.
Reader, I hope you let this resonate in your mind when you feel like you’ve lost the battle and you’ve hit rock bottom. Consider it a blessing when it happens, because there you will discover that God is the rock at the bottom, and you can go nowhere else but up. This is the verse I have been medicating on the past couple of days, I encourage you to do so as well.
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9